June 29th/BET awards..

Today would have been three years with my ex(blah!), I try to forget about this day as much as I can but it's hard she took me through a lot of unnecessary shit. I could never forget all of what she's done to me cause I've never been through so much drama like that before. I have moved on and through all the tears and pain I've learned to be stronger and to keep my guard up at all times. I always said I would never stop loving her, but as the time has passed the love I had for her has faded away. I'm glad that I can finally live without worrying what I would do without her.

Other then that today was an okay day I just wish I was able to attend the Beyonce concert tonight, but I did get to see her perform on the BET awards which was the next best thing. She did great if I may say so myself and her outfit was gorgeous, I also liked Maxwell's performance, Keyshia Cole & Monica's performance was good as well, I was really surprised at the Tyrese, Johnny Gill, and Trey Songz tribute to the O'Jays, and Lil Wayne's performance wasn't half bad, the New Edition's tribute to Michael Jackson was great, but what really amazed me was at the end of the show it took a lot of courage for Janet Jackson to be up there on stage and speak on be half of her brother and the family. The look she had on her face was a look I'll never forget she looked as if she was gonna cry but at the same time she kept her composure. That's what really made the show, she was able to speak although she's still mourning and grieving the death of her brother. My prayers are still with the family and may Michael Jackson rest in peace.